I decided to create this tumblr account before I left for Singapore. Before I joined the JTA program, I had a pleasure of viewing past JTA-ers’ blogs and resolved to making one to also record my experiences. That was before I knew that I wouldn’t be going to Europe. But oh well, so much for bitterness. I created a blog anyway, but I hadn’t post a single entry since I got to the Lion City. Not that there hadn’t been any fun experiences worthy to share with, it was just I was not used in making my life public. But anyway, since I don’t have any followers, it won’t matter if I post an entry today.

It took me all the courage that I could muster to go to Singapore. My friends and my relatives would testify that I was the most dependent person they had ever seen and predicted that I would die if I lived away from home for a long period of time. Well, despite of those, I’m still alive so yaaay for me! 

But okay, the reason for this post is I’m terribly homesick (or momsick, to be exact) these days. Before leaving, I thought I would cry in the airport while hugging my mom but I didn’t. During my first days here in SG, I never really missed her. I even felt guilty because of that. But when the JTA Sem 1 grades came out, I couldn’t help it. I needed the hug, advice and audible prayers of my mom :( I had been through a lot of downs in my life, but I was able to get up because of her. It’s just now that I feel that I am really alone now in this foreign country. Finding a Christian home Church somehow lifted my spirits up, but there were times when the sermon would be about family relationships and I would find myself crying again :( 

I’m scared to admit to my mom that I terribly miss her because she may think that I am that sad, making her sad too :( She and my relatives are actually in Batangas right now enjoying the long weekend, so I can’t skype with her or something :( BUT ANYWAY, I’m going somewhere tomorrow so maybe I’ll forget about missing her. I shall enjoy my remaining months here for I know I’ll regret it if I keep on sulking about my grades and my mom. HEEHEE. 

New days ahead. I shall be excited and ready.